Thoughts on an evening in office

Hey why am I getting this urge to write today!! I have nothing to write...nothing special happened in recent past...even if it happened I won't feel the urge to write about it..why wtf is going on!! Am I soo bored!!! Do I have no idea what soever where am I heading towards ...its almost like I am living without thinking...whatever's going on..just let it happen!!OMG! this has to stop! can't go on like this forever....bt then the thinkers are the ones with some special abilities right? like alee who has this artistic passion..or sharvil's vlsi...or himanshu's ias..wtf passion d i have!!! nothing at all! may be i like selling things!! yeah!! managing oasis stall was the most satisfying experience in bitsian life!! bt then that was a no-pressure job!! i don't like selling under pressure do I! where you hv to meet company targets or you are screwed!! nay!!!! bt then this present life is sooo passive...nothing really is going on..just surviving...breathing and consuming food...this cannot be life...got to much more satisfying than this...why am i doing nothing about this...because this is the convenient thing to do?? getting decent money on 28th of every month..just doing some gen coding here and there...but does it make sense in the long run? no definitely not..then how come I am doing nothing about it...simply because nothing bad is really happening..bt one day i know i'll wake up and say this is enough...i got to live my version of life...now i am feeling sleepy again..because this is again going in the direction of same old random thoughts..i'll publish this on random thoughts not on this blog..hey may be car racing!!:) :) i won a leather wallet in the company in toy-car racing world championship!! i would typically want financial freedom first..yes that is a good aim and something interesting right?? financial freedom? getting fixed amount of money every month without working at all!! that's cool!! bt do i need an mba for that?? indications suggest that most of the mba's end up working 15 hours for an abc company...far from not working at all..how many of us can be chetan bhagats!! so mba is not a gud idea probably if financial freedom is what i want... in fact a comp sc. masters degree wud be a better bet!! no financial freedom here too..bt better money probably!!wat am i talking about...we were supposed to talk about passion right? whats going on!! bt surely, working for the sole purpose of money can be extremely boring...u got to hv intellectual stimulation out of ur job! So am i being way too lazy...what do i do basically when i go home..watch tv...cook some food..read bit of newspaper and lol! go to sleep to start tomorrow's day again! OMG! no no no! :( :( hey wait a minute..are we being too unrealistic on expectations from life.. I mean life ws so boring for or boring wasn't it? the carpenter did carpenting all his life..and so did his son..and so did his...wake up everyday...and start peeling off that wooden slab sor smoothness...craftsmenship...same thing again and again..wasn't this thing supposed to be boring!! wake up guys!! life is not supposed to be a cakewalk!! its extremely challenging to sustain life lets be clear about it!! an average human being today doesn't even have the time to think on these lines...that his life is boring..because he's busy making ends meet! come on man!! i'm just plain lucky to get admission in a top college and get a well-paying job at 22! and now i'm crying that i have a boring life!! what luxurious talks!! i think it will be quite gud for me to spend time on weekends doing mediatation :) :) and some community work..this sunday i've got a wonderful opportunity and i'm going to be there!!koramangala 10:30 am!! looking forward to it! in the meantime, I think I'm convinced that these are really baseless talks to think life is getting boring..if it is, then get up and do something gud..doing an mba and selling soap is not going to make my life interesting..no need to be so obsessive that my life is going no where!! who are you dude!! please remember we all are just gen living species..we eat and live for some time..then we go..we're not here on some agenda...but yes, unlike animals who can't think this complex like us, we have the opportunity to have a great time on the earth..and we also have the potential to live a hellish life..which basically arises if we are obsessed about the phenomenon called life..just be thankful..and grateful for each moment..live naturally..listen to your body..if it says eat..then eat..if it says sleep..then sleep..if it says think..then think..and do lots of meditation....it can make us strong enough to withstand pain..